Today was a Good Day

today was fuckin amazing.

i wore minimal make up,

a nude lip

and the chunkiest scarf in my closet.

i was literally glowing.

oh, and i wore my hair out =D

we had it up with some after xmas shopping ^_^

hit up Rugby

scurried over to Louis

had lunch at the Rugby Cafe

i wore my clogs ^_^ (which is a lil epic since i don't seem to remember how to wear heels anymore)

it was a gorgeous day outside so i grabbed myself a chunky flowy fleece cardi from Urban and threw my down puffer in the bag and enjoyed the weather.

for the first time in a while, i felt cute and effortless.. i felt beautiful.

and not to mention i FINALLY got my louie bag !!

i hope everyone made it outside today and enjoyed the brisk fresh air and the sunny December day. =)

♥ Les

FUCK IT. and live!

FUCK society.

FUCK normality.

get PIERCINGS.

get TATTOOS.

get HIGH.

get DRUNK.

drink til you PASS OUT.

have GOOD sex.

EVERYWHERE.

wear MAKE-UP.

wear your hair WILD.

jump in a pile of LEAVES.

run in the rain NAKED.

SKINNY DIP!

tell your mommy you LOVE HER.

EVERYDAY.

let EVERYONE that you love know you love them.

love with all your HEART and BEING.

play your music LOUD.

jump in PUDDLES.

eat GOOD FOOD.

enjoy EVERY DAY.

take your time getting ready.

tell yourself you're BEAUTIFUL.

stand NAKED in your pumps in front of the mirror.

chase your DREAMS.

BE YOU.

LIVE YOUR FUCKING LIFE.

FUCK WHAT PEOPLE EXPECT OF YOU.

do what makes YOU HAPPY.

♥ Les

solitude.

the more i'm sitting here like this, the less i'm enjoying it

i have nothing to do.

i have no LIFE anymore.

if i sit here any longer i may very well get drunk and start cutting my hair.

i'm sick of worrying about who's right.

i'm sick of being a subconscious know-it-all.

i'm sick of allowing my pride get in the way.

i'm sick and DAMN tired of worrying about these bitches.

i'm sick of being so damn self-sonscious all my life.

i'm sick of worrying what other people think.

i'm tired of not knowing who Lesley even is anymore.

stuck in my head.

baby, you're a firework.

Not I.

soo, beeee* and i are sitting in the house on a Friday night looking like THIS...

and this...

oh, and this...

because we got STOOD UP by our co-workers ='(

now, in my boredom, i sat on this here laptop and browsed (twatched) twitter for a hot second and came across a tweet that i did not particularly like. upon further inspection i REALLY didnt like what i saw....

....then i clicked the link.

^_^

not a nairn't bitch got shit on me.

and please believe this outfit will be recycled so don't nobody say SHIT.

tonight,

i whipped up a lil sum'n sum'n

Murda Murda M-Murda Murda M-Murda Murda

as of Thursday, December 2nd, 2010 I, LESLEY ANN MILTON, am hear-by OFF OF PROBATION !! *knocks on wood*

WOOT WOOT

*hits dougie*

so with that said, i'm not sure how i feel about still bein called Murda

it's a very endearing nickname that i received while i was locked down by my niggas that was holdin it down for me on the outside while i was incarcerated but don't you think it's a bit of a harsh nickname for such a dainty lady such as moi?

idc though, i just want opinions.

it's not about what they call ya, it's what you'll answer to.

however, i'll still be responding to Murda.

indecisive

i miss my blonde hair =(

anyone that knows me and has been payin attention to my blog in the least bit should remember this post .. i was so fed up with my blonde hair. and now i miss it more than ever, i look like everyone else and i don't stand out ='( my hair is getting soooo long though! (on the bright side) i will admit, though, i suffer from seasonal depression and the winter is a major downerrrrrr

i also don't have everything in one set place I NEED AN APARTMENT!! i don't do well with the fact that one family is in MD, my high school friends are in DE, i live in Baltimore *gaggs*, and my mommy and doggies are in PA.. it's too fucking much and it stresses me out!

i'm also indecisive as fuck and it sucks ass =(

but....

i've decided to go back to blonde for the summer when my bang fully grows out =D

i've learned a lot about myself over this past year and Lesley the people pleaser has become second nature to me and i hate it. i didnt like how the blonde turned out the second time around, this is true, but i did love the fuckin blonde hair !! i finally stood out next to my friends and my hair looked fun curly and i just wanna go back to that. the thing that was wrong with my blonde was that i couldn't wear weaves......

but....

I DON'T NEED A WEAVE!!

(and if i do get one, it's gonna be some virgin hair that i colored myself)

i'm really trying hard to find myself and channel my inner beauty in order for it to shine and i think i'm grasping it more and more each day so now, it's time for the outside again =D

i can't wait until next summer !!

copped.

just a lil sumn sumn we picked up on black friday.

hi-larious.

starring myself, Jordan, Chris, and Avante.

enjoy :)

new obsession

while perusing around Urban Outfitters today avec Boooogie we were greeted with a skipping Jay-Z song. while they fixed the "technical difficulties" they popped in some cd and we went about our business.. until i was listening in and i thought i heard a Jimi sample and upon closer listen we heard some SICK ASS fuckin beats. debating whether or not we should ask who the artist of the music was, i decided to muster up some nuts and ask a sales associate, and i did and was uber hype that he actually knew who the artist was! =D

thus i give to you,

SLEIGH BELLS !!!!!!!!!!!

they're composed of Derek E. Miller (guitarist, writer, and beat-maker) and former school teacher, Alexis Krauss (vocalist)

their music is like nothing i've ever heard before but like everything i've ever wanted to hear.

trippy, eh?

needless to say, i swiftly ran home to find this eargasmic gold online and IMMEEE-JJUIT-LEEE downloaded their debut album "Treats" off iTunes and i've been zoning ever since. (poor roomies #evl >:) hehehe)

anywho, take a listen, get hip, get hooked.

Tell 'Em - Sleigh Bells by NestleAnn

the other day

i wore red lipstick.

my eyes look gross.

youtube-in

at approximately 1:26 i need you all to pay CLOSE attention to the gentleman on the left hand side of the screen's neck. it is detached.

and the fact that he starts out this particular dance scoping out himself in the mirror makes this alllllll the more better. (yes, more better)

at 1:57 he DISMISSES THE FUCK out of his scarf and him and the sir in the middle BOTH, SIMULTANEOUSLY break their necks.

it is pure enjoyment.

none-the-less. this is one of my favorite fucking videos on youtube!

Young, Black, and Pissed Off

i know some of yall looked at this like wtf?! i do owe you all an explanation.

this is my and 2 of my other classmates' radio show.. last monday we did a segment entitled Young, Black, and Pissed Off with our guests Avante "Boooogie" Davis and Jordan Milton (had fam in the buildin lol) it went extremely well and i know that it is a it lengthy but trust me, it is WELL WORTH the listen. we spoke on former president Bush, music, black influences and representations in the media, Kanye, Sarah Palin

we also decided to start a book club a Morgan State (like, why not! we're cool, we're hip, we're educated) and it can be opened up to anyone!

this month's book will be former President Bush's new book, Decision Points. hope u all enjoy and if u decide to join the book club hit me up for details !!

we plan on making this a weekly monday thing but this monday's show will be YB&P with a focus on the Book and the Book Club

we're just trying to make MSU students have some fun past their studies and really start critically thinking

Young, Black and Pissed Off 11/22/10 Radio Show by NestleAnn

#MyBeautifulDarkTwistedFantasy

yeah.

Today,

two gentlemen called me "model-esque" and "radiant"

^_^

now, in my attempts to maintain cool and uninterested as i sashayed away from their faux camera shots and grins...

i was ecstatic.

Flow's just the Nyce-est.

House of Flying Bullets (Prod. 28 Grams) by NestleAnn

DE STAND UP !!

finallyyyyy, someone with some sort of musical talent!

and not only that but he's a fellow COLONIAL !!

this was my favorite song off of the mixtape. the flow is ridiculous and the beat is captivating. i love it.

the whole cd in it's entirety is amazing. i forgot that i was listening to #oneofmyfollowers lol

Jealous Flow was a great in your face way to open up the cd but House of flying Bullets was my faaaave. and Love Drunk needs to find its way to a local radio station.

when i was listening to I do It and I'm Gone, i swore i was listening to Big Sean. shoutout to G.O.O.D. Music.

i didn't love 2.0 and the production could use a weeeeeee bit more cleaning up but i still couldnt believe that i was listening to a guy that used to be in the Algebra class i student aided in 2007.

download it here !!

Product of the 90s

disclaimer: small and messy room.

grunge works for me : ]

♥ Les

currently:

my heart is on cloud 9

In Love With You - Erykah Badu by NestleAnn

olive juice.

Green.

Jealousy = envy
Jealousy = obsession
Jealousy = caring
Jealousy = flattery
Jealousy = love
Jealousy = abuse
The second one denounces jealousy as the inevitable aspect of a relationship that it is, they give up on the relationship. However, jealousy can also be the demise of a relationship. One can be jealous without being abusive verbally or physically.
Jealousy gives reaction; it shows that the person is not one sided in the relationship.. It shows that they don't want to lose you. A negative reaction would be constant arguments or abusive actions which show that that person is toxic in your life anyway whether you are the victim or the abuser. No one should bring out such rage in you.
Jealousy = flattery. It may truly be the sincerest form of flattery. To know that someone feels threatened by the mere thought of losing you is breathtaking.
Jealousy = love when you fear for losing them because they're either a) not showing you jealousy back or b) exhibiting behavior that would lend one to jealous tendencies.
Jealousy is healthy in the sense that it pushes you to get to a point that you're no longer jealous; to a point where those you were once envious of are now in your shoes.
My jealousy is out of pure Love. Maybe I'm jealous because he doesn't get jealous or because he doesn't have to or choose to be as inquisitive as I. Who knows, but any relationship worth having is going to have some level of jealousy. Regardless.
Sent via BlackBerry from T-Mobile

i sat in bed last night and typed this. the words just seemed to flow right out of my head like it had been lingering on my chest for some time. and it ultimately made me realize this, I AM A JEALOUS PERSON. and i am okay with that.

a lot of men equate jealousy with femininity and then make it out to be a horrible aspect that they do not look for in a mate, YET, how would the pseudo masculine male that consumes our planet deal with a female that merely wants him but does not need him.

THEY LOSE IT !! that's what happens.

ladies, try using the gentleman/men in your life as toys. you won't be able to stop your phone from ringing or the texts from incoming. the thing is, MEN HATE TO BE IGNORED, they love to be needed and they love to be able to tell us "chill baby, fall back. you on my neck baby girl" thus causing them to deem us needy, THUS causing us to be jealous because now we feel as though we "need" him.

it's all politics, and it's a shame.

flashback.

look what a Fan put in my honesty box a few years back =D lol aside from all of the sexual comments and decent compliments, this was theeee funniest.

Can't stand yu sabreya or brittany yu looq like michael jackson breya juss looks like a trani n brittany is a dark version of ru paul! Ya'll swear yal tha shit but like in reality yal aren't like yu seriously looq plastic or something an yu keep thinkn langsto is faithfull hahaha whoa that is tha fuq type funny! I'm dien of laughter! Yu stuq on him sabreya manish ass stuck on devin like wtf n brittany has no damn bdy she jussa whore

that shit is comical lol

-Les

VISIT AND FOLLOW ME AND MY BEEE*'S NEW BLOG !!

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VISIT AND FOLLOW ME AND MY BEEE*'S NEW BLOG !!

WWW.WHATSTHEBZZZ.BLOGSPOT.COM

pardon my absence.. i've been ridiculously lazy these days.

i pinky swear that when i get my life together (school, hair, clothes, etc) i will be back!

♥Les.

Daily To Do List

implementing this list asap.

changed the blog around a little bit.. i guess.

insecurity verbalized

i've had this song on repeat since about August 15, 2010.

♥

Don't Let Go.

just saw this video on Kanye's Gallery Blog and, usually, i don't click on the videos that he posts because he has a sort of sick taste in gore and art that i don't understand, most of the time.. but this was a really cool video and the choreo was siiiiiiick, very precise moves and sharp motions =D .. (that's just the little cheerleader coming out of me)

i was literally watching this video slightly mesmerized by it.

anywho, enjoy.

OWWWW :$

ready?! search and find!! YALL tell ME why this picture is 24 karat fuckery.

this should be fun...

Blonde for Sale !!

my my, darling, where have all of your lovely loqs gone?

BYE BYE BITCHES !!

ok, so anyone that knows me and knows me WELL, knows that i am thee most indecisive human being alive. i went blonde back in March and i can personally attest to the fact that "Blondes Have More Fun". i'm not sure what it is about blonde that makes people extra complimentary.. like literally, EVERYONE loved me blonde and so did i =D .. people didn't even recognize me, it was like i was a totally new person! guys thought i was new to campus, girls were doing double takes.. my friends were passing me by on accident, it was great!!

...but then everyone around me started going blonde! i swear i saw more fried edges and bleached out locks than i've ever seen in life! i was so appalled. i'm not saying i'm a fashionista or trend setter and everyone is waiting for my next fashion move BUT, like when the fuck did all these folk decide to go blonde ironically around the same time as me? hmmm.. strange.

and then roots came in. at first, i didn't mind it.. it was cute, gave my hair some dimension but then Miami happened and the sun literally bleached my hair. so if you all can imagine me, 5 shades darker, black roots and bleach blonde frizzy curls, you'll understand why i started hating the blonde. i felt trailer park trash-ish. like the old white ladies with the frizzy bleached curls and that nasty orange tan with those deeeesgusting black roots. i felt hideous. needless to say, i came home and tore that weave out so fast it wasnt even funny. so i straightened my hair and it actually didn't look so bad so i opted not to get my roots done.

...and i continued to not get my roots done. i tried adding weave but it looked dumb cause it didn't have roots to the extent of mine and, look, it just looked bad.

then...

i wrapped all of that weave up into a cute bun and was reminded of how beautiful and exotic i look with dark hair! i rocked that bun for 4 days straight lol

then...

i got a hair appointment and got my roots done.

i won't lie. i liked it.

until...

i tried the bun again.

it looked SO BAD !! the brown was wayyyy too dark and idk why she put it over my ears !! (it was like when italian men start going gray and the sides are still dark but the top is salt and peppered.. works for them, me, not so much.) and the blonde was like wayyyyyyyyyyyy bright and my eyebrows were too black. ugh !! i was back to that fuckin trashy ass white trailer park look that i thought i had escaped by getting my roots done !!

luckily, i had an appointment 3 weeks down the road andddd i had been contemplating different darker looks for me. i figured since everyone loved me blonde so damn much, maybe i'd just add some lowlights. so i told Deana (my stylist) that i just wanted to tone my blonde down a little bit.. to like an auburn-esque red; you know, for the fall.

thus!!

after much thought, i realized that i was only keeping the blonde because i'd received much praise for doing so. i believed that my hair was making me beautiful and not the other way around. the hair was making the girl, the girl was not making the hair. i had been talking about going back to brown for quite some time which means, to me, that i actually wanted to do that. i wasn't, so much, loving the blonde anymore and in order to make Lesley happy, i went red. i've ALWAYS wanted to be a redhead and i finally got up enough guts to do it :]

i've never liked my natural ashy dirty blonde hair color, and black washed me out.

blonde made me look a little trashy at times and showed ALL of my split ends

sooooo. red is like the PERFECT middle man ;]

i believe that everyone has a color that best accents their skin tone, and it's not always their natural color. blonde works for some people and it was cute on me for the time being, but i really feel sexy as a redhead.. and my hair is shinier than ever !!

on the road to self-validity and self-actualization, red hair was stop numero uno =D

♥

not as many compliments on my hair this time around BUT I LOVE IT !!

and that's all that matters

Quickie w/ my Fuck Me's

just grabbed these glammed out glitzy bitches today =D

i've had my eye on a similar Baker's pair for a little over a month but Baker's shoes are fucking bricks; cute, adorable, must have bricks.. hardest shoes i've everrrrrr worn, in life !!

so, needless to say, they remained in Baker's ..buuuuut due to this weekend's events, i needed a shoe for tonight and was given the idea to go shiny with this blue

American Apparel dress that i've had for a strong 5 months now

thus, this relationship was born

i absolutely love them and they WILL be getting extreeeme rotation

the chunky, stiletto, stripper-esque nature of this shoe automatically qualifies it as a Fuck Me Pump

...and everyone (should) knows i love a good FMP

PLUS !!! I GRABBED SOME AWESOME CLOGS !!

those will get blogged later, i just had to get this lil quickie in before i went out ;)

pics coming soon!

♥

APPRECIATION !!!! *edit*

i just need all four of my blog followers to know that i truly appreciate you guys !! =D thanks for paying my blog some love and attention =D

@juhstys

@boooogiebetch

@AC_SLAAATER

@isupermansam

love u guys !

OKOKOK... ima lil too hype, but whatever.. hope to get four more asap!

♥

FALL WISH LIST

Summer's coming to an end and i can't necessarily say that i'm sad.. i FUCKING LOVE THE FALL !! =D it's by far my favorite season. it's beautiful! the colors, the smells, the food, the holidays, the weather, the FOOTBALL, the clothes.. ughhh, i love it all. there's just such a warm environment about the fall to me.. you get to be with your family, school starts back up, homecomings, traveling, and not to mention that refreshing, cool Saturday morning; that perfect football weather! ohh the memories... too bad winter is the following season =/

so with all of that being said, here's a few things that i've been lusting over thus far:

all item brands, styles, and colors are subject to change..

Tickets to the Dallas/Skins season opener in DC

i plan on being in attendance adorned in Cowboys paraphanel and possibly face paint.. like why not, right? fuck it.

a fitted Black Blazer

for obvious reasons, i am in DIAR need of a black blazer.. i'm trying to dress more mature and give myself a style that i feel both sexy and comfortable in

and besides, it has become a staple in every woman's wardrobe to date and it adds a bit of sophisticated sexy to any outfit from jeans and a V to a fun flowy belted dress

these SPECIFIC THREE Jessica Simpson shoes

i've been dyinggggg for a clog since about 2008 and now that they're back in style and in just about every shoe store these days, IM GETTING A PAIR !! ...or two ;]

i secretly still love bell bottom and flare jeans (hate fuckin bootcut) and none of my heels are appropriate for such denim except for a clog.

however, the infamous skinny jean will still reign supreme in my wardrobe...

i've needed a shoe like this just because! it's fucking amazing! it's chunky, it's high, it's sexy, and it'll go perfect with knee high white socks =D ! *don't judge me* i've been tryna do that look for a good minute ! (since damn hell 07) and damnit, i'm getting these

and these... for no other reason that EVERY girl should have a Fuck Me Pump and i'm in need of a new one.

of course.. there's a few more things that i need that i can't quite find online right now cause i'm tired of looking and sitting still and these nails are too long for me to continue typing... they're driving me mad.

i'll keep u 3 updated! =D

oh yeah.. and they will all be getting purchased THIS WEEKEND !!

i can't wait to go fall shopping ! eeek !!

=D

♥