indecisive

i miss my blonde hair =(

anyone that knows me and has been payin attention to my blog in the least bit should remember this post .. i was so fed up with my blonde hair. and now i miss it more than ever, i look like everyone else and i don't stand out ='( my hair is getting soooo long though! (on the bright side) i will admit, though, i suffer from seasonal depression and the winter is a major downerrrrrr

i also don't have everything in one set place I NEED AN APARTMENT!! i don't do well with the fact that one family is in MD, my high school friends are in DE, i live in Baltimore *gaggs*, and my mommy and doggies are in PA.. it's too fucking much and it stresses me out!

i'm also indecisive as fuck and it sucks ass =(

but....

i've decided to go back to blonde for the summer when my bang fully grows out =D

i've learned a lot about myself over this past year and Lesley the people pleaser has become second nature to me and i hate it. i didnt like how the blonde turned out the second time around, this is true, but i did love the fuckin blonde hair !! i finally stood out next to my friends and my hair looked fun curly and i just wanna go back to that. the thing that was wrong with my blonde was that i couldn't wear weaves......

but....

I DON'T NEED A WEAVE!!

(and if i do get one, it's gonna be some virgin hair that i colored myself)

i'm really trying hard to find myself and channel my inner beauty in order for it to shine and i think i'm grasping it more and more each day so now, it's time for the outside again =D

i can't wait until next summer !!